I have known that I need to write a post for my blog. I’ve known it for four years, the date of my last blog post. I always seem to find other things to do but with Christmas fast approaching I figured this was as good a time as any other to share and to reflect.
Over these past four years my family and I have had to endure disappointments, trials and hardships of many kinds. We have also experienced times of joy and God’s blessings, provision and favor in our life and over our family. I am personally doing very well. Since the car accident in October of 2017 I’ve had a couple years of seizures with the reemergence of the brain tumor (treated with a technology called gamma knife). My last seizure was in September of 2019 and so my medication appears to be at the right level and after two and a half years of no driving I have just recently began to drive again. I feel like a 16 year old again!
As I reflect, seasons of faith and hope and seasons of doubt and despair are both apart of life. There were times over these past four years, especially surrounding my car accident, when I absolutely doubted. I doubted that God was close or that He cared. I doubted that God was personally involved like I had learned in Sunday school; that maybe all He was was just an overseer. Distant. The Creator and that was it. In the midst of great pain I despaired. Was God good? Is God good? As I look back over the years I see how God has been faithful. How He has provided for our family in ways I could never have expected. Provided family. Provided friends. Provided finances. Provided our home. Provided a way for me to work from home so many years ago. He has been faithful to me. To us. And in this faithfulness He has shown that He is in fact good.
And so this Christmas 2020, as crazy a year as it has been, I hope that you can see God in all of the seasons and know that He is good.
